Month: August 2016

The Earth is On Fire, I’m a Hermit, Here’s a Drawing.

Greetings and permutations.

I’ll post the drawing stuff first, because that’s the pretty-shiny thing.


First, a collage of the process:


As you can see, I’ve done my first little illustration tarot card thing. Here’s an animation, because I like them/think they’re cute:


Here’s a nifty hi-res image of the finished product.  THO this is not the final scan.  I plan on cutting this out of the art paper and probably mounting it to a board or something, or gluing some kind of backing to it to make it into something more sturdy.  Idk BUTTTT I am planning on listing it in my etsy store as soon as I have a more manageable scan (the dark edges made getting a clean scan difficult because of the shape of the image, blah blah I’m still working on it. ) Also I’m not sure that this is actually the *final* design? It’s definitely the direction I want to go in but I might do a larger version.  Still idk.  I like how rough it looks but it’s a bit asymmetrical so .

Anyways here it is:


Touching on the other above listed points:

  1. That of the Earth being on fire:  I mean, I can’t speak for much more than the region that I live in, which is the southeastern United States, but it’s hot as fuck. Hot as gross sweaty balls.  Hot beyond.  And so work has been busy. And there’s so much pain, there’s been so much pain and anguish all summer long, socially and culturally and just even physically and materially in my own life.   And so I have been exhausted by the heat and by the work and the pains and by social anxiety.  Which brings me to my next point.
  2. On being a hermit: (I’ll probably touch more on my interpretation of the Hermit Tarot figure in a post on a different blog but) I mean it basically is what it is. I like to be alone, I like to be at home in my cave where my comforts and my creatures dwell.  I like to think and read and do intellectual exercises and make things of my own accord/volition.  I partly feel this way because, no shit Sherlock, social anxiety/agoraphobia????ish? I’ve not got a formal dx of that and my own anxiety has more to do with crowds and I know that’s a thing with it’s own name but it eludes me and honestly I can spend months going nowhere but to my job and my house. And it doesn’t feel very right or healthy all the time.   But also I’m alienated due to sexuality, social class, and size, and I find that in groups I have to scream to be heard and I was into that for a number of years and now I seem to have a permanent laryngitis and so.  Hermit life it is.

SO! That’s my end-of-summer (DEAR FOR THE LOVE OF FUCKING CRISPY CHRIST PLEASE LET IT BE OVER SOON) update.  Love y’all and hope you’re well!  Still promise to one day have more coherent thoughts on relevant things but till then you’re stuck with the art and the navel-lint.  Happy Sunday night 😀


P.S. ALSO some of my art got accepted into a local show (two of the pieces I have featured in speedpainting videos!!!) and I’ll be posting like super soon about that.


Late Lammas Tidings, also a painting video!


So I’ve made a goal to do SOMETHING to honor the 8 standard holidays that mark the wheel of the year this year, to be more involved in my own spirituality, etc. and so forth.  When I realized that Lughnasadh/Lammas was coming up I decided to look into it, and low and behold I think I’ve decided it’s going to be a thing from this point forward in my life.

I’ve always really loved the part of the wheel-turning that marks the solid entrenchment of the fall, and since I now have a job that’s very involved during the summer, I appreciate that season even more.  And Lughnasadh as a kickoff to harvest season is just perfect.   So I created a painting that I’m not sure I will sell (but I might! Keep an eye out for updates if you’re interested!) to kind of work out my feelings on that holiday, and the painting has a little sigil in it and some symbolism and stuff.  I made a video of the process of the painting, which you can check out (don’t forget to thumbs up and subscribe to my youtube if you’re into it!)  It’s bigger than some of my most recent stuff has been and so I can’t fit it into my scanner to make prints.  I might come up with some limited-edition special thing for it, not sure.  Ideas?


I didn’t do a lot of ritual work, tho, because I’ve been having health issues that mean taking potent pain medicine and my brain is somewhat foggy and unfocused.  I’ve had to miss work, etc.  It’s been hard and tiring.  I’m coming into a phase where I feel a need for transformation, but I lack the financial means.  I’d be interested in feedback from folk who don’t have the luxury of financial support/being able to do their awesome hobby-that-should-be-their livelihood as a livelihood, or from youtubers/bloggers/etc other artsy people who do find it necessary to maintain a 9-5 so as to keep a roof over their heads.  A lot of people that I have followed over the years on youtube have mentioned having financial assistance from a spouse or having an already-established art career, I don’t hear enough about the nuts and bolts of being a working-class or a blue-collar artist.  I’m keen to hear from people with that type of experience! It’s felt very alienating and slow and like I’ve been swimming in molasses trying to pull the bits together just so that I can make a few art videos and put them out into the universe.

At any rate, the wheels keep turning, don’t they?

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